Well Dora, the nice thing about here on Gaire is you don't have to be anybody but yourself....OR you can be anybody you want to.
Just enjoy the diversity of this little corner of the internet and remember, us Gaireans will always accept you for who you are and what you aspire to be.
Remember too, that the general public's reception of cross-gendering and cross-dressing are deep rooted results of patriarcial conditioning and a lot of the time the hostility you experince is just pure fear from others who have yet to fully explore their masculine or feminine sides.
But you'll find most of the ppl on this site are totally happy inside their own skins, no matter what gender, or any given mix of genders they percieve themselves to be. I for one, on any given day, need to sometimes stop and ask myself; am I today working mainly from my feminine side, or from my masculine side - and I am a proud biological male.
And take solace and comfort in these words; the term "female" is a matter of birth biology BUT the term 'feminine' is a set of culturally defined characteristics and although you can do nothing abou the former, you are, unless you choose to undergo radical surgery [and thats OK too, if you go that route] stuck with your biology. But the second one, being feminine, is mere characteristics that you can choose to foreground in your behaviour and emotions, or choose not to - depending on how you are feeling at any hour of any day.
Celebrate your femininity, revel and wallow in it, love it and Go Tell It From The Mountain that you; Dora, the person who understands his/her own gender better than anyone else in this world and in whatever incarnation you choose to be received in on any given day; that you are here to stay and here to teach some of the ignorant people who are stuck in their own stupidity due to a lack of self-challenge and blind acceptance of a load of silly accepted notions and rules that should have been done away with years ago.
Gender is a mere state of mind.