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I think I posted in the old thread back in January or some time around then. I think I can safely say that I've had a hell of a time since then. I've been spiralling down since then and nothing seems to be helping. Meds have done nada, counselling has only made my anxiety levels worse. I've been bouncing between doctors due to an utterly incompetent psychiatrist and the campus health centre closing for the summer. Luckily I've one amazing friend but I rely on him too much and I hate feeling like I can drag him down. My head is a complete mess. I ended up deferring my exams due to all this since I haven't been attending lectures since March and can barely string together sentences, let alone study. I was hoping that I'd be in a better position to be able to work during my holidays but I've slid down since I've left college too so that's not even happening.
Sorry for the rambling and whiney post. I find it so hard to express how I'm feeling or what I'm thinking which makes it a pain with doctors and stuff.
Kaede i can completely empathise with you, Ive been in a similar situation. I totally let things slip in Uni but luckily i managed to still get great results. I have exams to resit in August, i deferred because i hadnt been able to do anything before Christmas because i was travelling back to Tipp to help my dad. To be honest though, I used that as an excuse to defer. I haven't been happy in my degree, but i feel pressure (self inflicted) to keep going with it.
Is there any way you can pass your exams and maybe take a year out? It may be an option. I am considering it because things have become almost unbearable. Put yourself first, you know better than anyone how best to handle things. Sometimes we just dont trust in ourselves because we fear the aftermath of our decisions.
For me, in my heart, i know that i just have to make a decision and follow through with that. If you are happy with your decision, don't ever feel you should have to jusitfy it to anyone else. Good luck Kaede