My wife and I have a very close relationship and I think that it would be cruel to her to do as you suggest. Not to mention kids & wider family.
This is a part of me with a long history. I thought I could park it somehow but as i came to realize over time, a homosexual drive is a very powerful one, and one that needs release.
I know the risks, and take great care in my dealings with other males. Believe me, this is quite complex but I do my very best to deal with it.
Thanks for the reply, I sense, unlike some others here, that you are genuine in what you're saying.