Someone said :
i have nearly exact same feelings, im in very happy long term relationship with a lady and pretty active sex life, but i was humiliated by nuns who made me wear a dress as a child. for some reason i can still remember this and obviously in some way it turned me on, as every so often i cant get enough sissy gay sex or humiliation and spanking etc, i long to try being a sissy slut but so scared of catching something, but really have to try sometime. that said i never fancied a guy, but want one to control me humiliate me and shag me
As long as you do not humiliate that lady in the process by keeping her in the dark.
Because if you do, you allow these pervert nuns to victimise you over and over, but also victimise her. And when she gets hurt you cannot blame the nuns, because you will have been the dealer of that fate.