Sheeben, I am in the same position. Sometimes I suspect the think I'm gay but this is over compensated in terms of oh sure you need to go out and get a girlfriend, when you have kids and Santa etc..... Also they don't believe that a son of theirs could be gay. I think they would feel disappointment and ashamed!! Also my parents are homphobic which doesn't help. My sister has many gay friends so she would be great to come out to but secrets don't work in our house!!!
I empathise completely with you Sheeben but I disagree with Zozimus. It's not as straight forward as Zozimus potrays. To many of us our families are the most dearest group of people we know. We have grown up together, shared our dreams and aspirations and our parents want us to be happy, have kids if we want and want us to lead a fufilled life!! I make this statement on the basis that you are lucky enough to get on with your family, as all are not so lucky.
However I view like you that coming out to our parents and siblings is the hardest thing of all to do. We fear rejection and also I don't want to upset my parents or lose the close relationship I have with them. It is very hard to live the lie!! Also when we laugh off or deny that we are gay I fell that I am betraying all those who are out and who are fighting for gay rights!! I feel like a double agent lying to both sides!! I also fear the potential loss my parent may feel such as no grandchildren or wedding for me and them!! (This doesn't upset me really!!)
What I feel is that when the time is right for me I will come out. I am probably the most unlikely gay person as no-one would suspect me. However at my age people do begin to suspect as to why you don't have a girlfriend, why you don't chat up girls when I go to nightclubs etc...
I offer my full love and support to you Sheeben as we are both on the same stinking boat..however there is a ray of hope in the form of the support we receive here on the boards and we will come out when we are ready and comfortable to.
Sheeben, relax and enjoy Christmas and you never know how things might be this time next year!!